Journal Time!

A Letter | April 1, 2023

Dear Author,

I write to you in a time of great distress. Recently I have found myself foolish enough to fall in love, or at least as close to it as I can be. I tried to talk it out and it went relatively well. I don't feel right, though. He doesn't love me back. He has someone else whom he is with so often, and who gets to be loved by him. I am missing love. I want it. I want it so badly. How do I make him love me? How can I stop feeling this way? How can I make this stop?

Dear Reader,

To love someone who does not requite it is one of life's hardest trials. Honor comes so easily to us in times of peace; other times, it is a harrowing thing to uphold. But if your love is true, then why do you wait for him to give you things for that love? If your love is true, it is unconditional, given without expectation that you will get anything back. Is this about giving your love or is it about getting something in return?

I get it is hard. Loneliness is one of the many slow deaths. You will certainly find someone, though, someone that can and will give you what you want. What will your love be then? Will it still burn brightly? Will you still say such sweet things about him?

If it really is true, then love him. Make his life warmer, happier, better. You don't need the label of his partner nor knowledge of his body to do that. That's what it will always be about. You will get your gratification one day, even if it isn't exactly what you wanted it to be. In the meantime, please be kind to yourself, and to others as always.

In another life, I would have really liked just doing laundry and taxes with you.

- Waymond, Everything Everywhere All At Once